Unlike my Weblog, this is where I'll be posting more personal things. Like life updates, what I've done today, rants, vents, and whatever goes on in my head. Things you'll find here are more serious and personal than the Weblog. Here's where you'll get to know me - Sunny - as a person, rather than the child-like persona I've used throughout the rest of my webpage.
If that ruins things for you, feel free to click away.
Possible content warning!: Mental health related topics and vulgarity
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Today has been terrible. I can't remember when I woke up, but I was dealing with something stressful since the moment I woke up up until about dinner time. I'm feeling a bit better now, but I'm worried that it'll come up again and I'll have to deal with it tomorrow or another day. Things have been way better for me recently, compared to the past few years. So whenever I have a bad day, I can't help but to dwell on it for days after. It causes me to relapse a lot of the time. I'm going to be honest, I genuinely wished I could die earlier to escape everything. I'm not going to do anything, and I don't feel that way anymore, but it goes to show how stressful things were and how much stuff like this impacts me.
I've felt really sick all day. I haven't eaten anything, which isn't good for me due to health reasons. It made my mom upset with me but I couldn't even explain to her why I've felt like shit all day, because then she'd get all up in my business about it.
I want to delete my website and live off the radar for a few days in order to feel better, but some people don't want that. I just. Don't know what to do. If you talk to me on Discord or follow me anywhere you probably know what happened. Ugh... I just wish people would leave me alone. All I wanted to do was make a cute website, I have no ill intent, genuinely.
This isn't a formal apology of course, it's just a journal to put my thoughts. But I am sorry to all of those I have hurt, I promise on my life it wasn't intentional.
I struggle with social cues n all of that, so it's always hard for me. I'm trying though. No one deserves to have to put up with me.
I hope all of this will fade into the past.